“It’s a Dot” . . . (side note)

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One of the more difficult times during this process was when I had to tell my kids. Jason (27) was strong and encouraging. We were sitting at his house and I just starting crying. He said, “mom, it’s going to be OK”! It’s hard having your kids tell YOU that it’s going to be OK – that’s my job to be telling them.

Amie(23) was much harder. I showed up at her place unannounced and she knew something was wrong. I don’t drive up to see her during the week (1 hour away). When I told her what was going on we both just cried. When she asked me “Mom, I just don’t get it, why is this happening”? I told her I had nooooo idea, but THIS I know for SURE . . . “God will not give us more than we can handle, and He gave ME a dot!!” That is truly how I feel. It soooo stinks that I have to go through this and it soooo stinks that Breast Cancer will now be part of my life and it soooo stinks that when Amie gets older she will be asked at her check-ups “do you have any family history of breast cancer”, now she has to say yes. That breaks my heart.

About countrygirlbling

I am a 55 years young, divorced (many years) mom of 2 great kids. My son is 28 years old & my daughter is 24. They are both out on their own forging through life as successful, functioning adults . . . a mother's dream! I hope that my blog and my experiences will encourage you & give you hope. Our journey through life can be unpredictable at times but KNOW that if you are a believer in Christ, HE will always have your best interest at heart! (Even when things don't make sense!) Toodles

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  1. It’s easy to feel guilty about your kids having to be aware of something that can be inherited from you. I know. Every time one of my kids (27, 24, 23) trips, or say they have a tingle somewhere my mind goes directly to the worse. OMG they have MS! No, they don’t. It can be heredetary (sp?) just like BC. You don’t have a history though. It is unnecessary worry over what we cannot control. I have spent hours crying during my MS journey with “what if” thinking. I’ve gotten much better but that fear still creeps up once in a while. God knows your heart, the unknown, the treatment, fear for Amy. He hurts with you. He has not been caught by surprise. I find comfort in knowing that He knows I’m scared and that my faith sometimes isn’t what it should be for myself, my kids and all MS keeps taking. But He whispers “that’s ok. I’ve got you. Let go and trust me.” And it’s sooooo not right that you have BC. It so sucks. God’s grace and mercy and love will get you thru the ups and downs of this journey in our very fallen, sinful and difficult world. Love you and praying for you. I’m not just saying that. I really am.

    Nina~

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