You know I’ve never been a fan of waiting. I actually hate waiting. Waiting leaves me feeling like I have absolutely no control. I don’t consider myself a control freak, BUT having control does bring me a sense of security, a sense of knowing what to expect. Well waiting kind of ranks up there for me like having patience. I’m not a big fan of having patience either. Waiting means I have to be patient, that I have no control, that I don’t have a choice, that I HAVE to wait.
Well I had a bit of an epiphany yesterday. In some circumstances waiting can be a choice. In one of my first posts on my blog I spoke about “choice” seeming to be a common thread in my life this year. Well yet again, choice has reared its head. A couple months ago a dear friend of mine told me to look up Psalm 27:14 in the Bible. It says, “Wait on the Lord, let your heart take courage, wait on the Lord”. I wrote it down & stuck it to my bathroom mirror and that’s where it’s been for the last 8 weeks, until yesterday morning when I threw it in the trash. I threw it in the trash because I had enough waiting. I was discouraged and felt like I deserved an answer to my waiting. Last night I realized that I was the only one who had a deadline to “my” waiting. God doesn’t have deadlines. He tells us to pray unceasingly.
I realized that “for me”, “for now”, waiting IS a choice. Whether you are waiting for a job, a relationship, a medical diagnosis, a financial windfall, there are some things we have no control over. However, we can control how we choose to react to our “waiting”. I realized that in the “waiting” you still have hope. While you’re waiting, you’re hoping and hoping is not a bad place to be.
So, last night I took that Psalm 27:14 note out of my trash, stuck it back on my bathroom mirror and I drew a happy face on it . . . ’cause I love waiting!! LOL